I remember growing up how I wanted to be a maid. I loved cleaning and thought that being a maid would be the best job in the entire world. One time I even got a bucket of water and our feather duster and cleaned the playground’s slide because it was dirty. I wanted to be a teacher. Vis-à-vis pens made my Christmas and the day my sister brought home a sheet of transparency paper was the best day of my young life. I wanted to be an astronaut and fly to the moon. I wrote NASA and asked them to send me space pictures and when they arrived I plastered the back of my door with the solar system. No matter what my occupation, I was going to live in a grand house. It had four stories, including the basement which was going to be a movie theater. I still have the floor plans. It was going to be the house that all my kid’s friends hung out at, the “cool” house. And most importantly, it was always going to be clean. It was great when you were young to have a plan for your life.
If you know me now, you know that I still like to make plans and lists; it didn’t fade away with age. I am one of the listy-est people I know, constantly making to-do lists (write a blog entry is on my current to-do list) and planning things in my head. And like most ISFJ’s, I like stability and nearly cry when things don’t go as planned. I started preparing for my move to Seattle a year before I was leaving. I was worried in august that I didn’t have a place to live when I moved there in March. I didn’t have a job moving out here and that absolutely terrified me. I still don’t have a job and I’m still terrified. I got my degree in business because I thought it would easy to get a job after graduation, not because it’s what I really wanted to do. I don’t know what I really want to do. Lately I’ve been feeling really called to mission work, mainly in Africa.
All that being said, after josh graduates in 3 years, I’m moving to Africa. When I first told josh this, he thought I was just putting the idea out there, you know, something to think about, but I made it clear that I was serious. So, this is my plan for now. I just have to figure out what I’m going to do for the next three years, maybe become someone’s personal assistant…I’d be good at that.